Farewell 2015

What is it about this time of year that leads one into desires of becoming an entirely new person?  Sure, I would love to wake up January 1st in a body that doesn't hurt with slim hips and a chest that only follows the curve of the muscles beneath the skin but that's not possible and if I'm completely honest, not really what I would want. There is so much beauty in the growth process, so much to learn from the struggles, and so much value to be had in living through all of it. You grow from your struggles.


My goals for 2016 life are based in experiences rather than hard facts or numbers.

I will love myself better. That means drink more water, move more, make better food choices, laugh more, nurture my creativity and my body in ways I have neglected.

I will continue to improve my skills in everything I do. This means I will take on challenges, and I will say yes to things that are difficult while acknowledging my fears of failure.

I will ignore the comments, if I must scroll down to read I will refrain from jabbing the batshit crazy with my opinions. I may not be perfect all of the time but I will speak with more kindness, more joy and more optimism because I'm pretty happy and optimistic. It makes no sense to do otherwise.

I will continue with my minimalism journey. Own less, live and explore more. This includes dealing with the nightmares that are my SL inventories.

Business goals are simple, stay on the path I am on. It has been an amazing year for Ama. and if the coming year continues in the same way that would be great.

I will prepare in advance of my move so I don't have to slow or cut my event schedule that month.

That's it for me. I'm already halfway dressed for the annual party we attend to make the end of the year special. I love you all.

 <3 Ama 

fri.day year end sale!

Yes... yes I know I said no more posts but I wanted to share this.


Visit fri.day here

<3 Cat

Austen

This is my last planned post before I take a bit of a holiday. You should see Ama one last time as well to talk about New Years resolutions. Then things will go quiet around here for several weeks. I hope your holidays have been everything you wanted them to be. Mine were... interesting. Good for the most part and surreal all at once. Without going into the boring details 2016 seems to be off to a great start.

Hair : TRUTH HAIR @Uber : Austen*

Skin : Izzie's  : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Jacket : BUENO @Uber : Testify Jacket : Red

Jeans : Maitreya : Zipper-Skinny Jeans : Dirty

Dress : Blueberry @Uber : Gwen Cardigan Dress

Poses : Kirin : Keiko : 2, 5

<3 Cat

Gael and Salem

Photo one

Hair : MINA Hair @Men Only Monthly : Gael*

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Triumph Eyes : Armor

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Necklace : Ama. : Ciaran Crystal Necklace

Jacket : ::K:: @Shiny Shabby : Fur Bolero : Ashbrown

Pants : FATEwear : Eddie : Void

Pose : !bang @Shiny Shabby : recline : 3

Photo two

Hair : *Drot* @Men Only Monthly : Salem

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Hope Eyes : Denim

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Top : etham @Men Only Monthly : Polka Dot Shirt

Pants : FATEwear : Eddie : Void

Pose : XXY @Men Only Monthly : The best 1

<3 Ama

Merry Christmas 2015

Merry Christmas from us <3

La Paix

Photo one

Hair : Magika : Sparkle

Skin : Izzie's : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Jacket : neve : femme : dots*

Pose : Le Poppycock @The Liaison Collaborative : *La Paix* : Tranquility

Photo two

Hair : Magika : Sparkle

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Jewellery : Izzie's : Gingerbread Man Necklace and earrings : copper

Jacket : neve : chilled : plaid*

Pose : Le Poppycock @The Liaison Collaborative : *La Paix* : Clarity

<3 Cat

That lazy festive feeling

We're done a truly minimalist holiday season this year complete with no decorating and simple consumable gifts for those we love. Best decision we have made ever when it comes to the season. I hope your holidays have been as stress free as possible so far.

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Sicily*

Skin : Izzie's : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Necklace : Maxi Gossamer @Collabor88 : Mama Owl with Baby Owlets

Outfit : Goji : Kitten : Tartan*

Socks : Izzie's : Garter Socks

Boots : fri.day @Collabor88 : Jessica Boots : Buck*

Pose : Kirin : Keiko pose 5

<3 Cat

Holiday Fun

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Bernadette*

Skin : Izzie's  : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Dress : Goji : BooBoo : Cherry*

Boots : fri.day @Collabor88 : Jessica Boots : Buck*

Pose : Kirin : Mia : Pose 3

Scene :

*~*HopScotch*~* @Midwinter Fair : DIY Holiday Dollhouse : Various pieces {Enlarged to create the scene, they are dollhouse sized normally.}*

*~*HopScotch*~* @Winter Gacha Festival : Smoofy Holiday : Various*

<3 Cat

Let it Snow while I'm warm inside

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I hope your December is going well so far. I have been frantic finishing my sock knitting and gift making and so much. I hope life slows a little in the New Year. That might be a good thing for the resolutions but that is a story for another day.

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Bernadette*

Skin : Izzie's : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Top : *Katat0nik* @Collabor88 : Bunny Cropped Turtleneck : white

Pants : The Secret Store @Collabor88 : Masha Pants : Mustard

Boots : fri.day @Collabor88 : Jessica.Boots : Coal

Pose : Photo one : The pose is included in the ski lift, Photo two : (Marukin) @Collabor88 : [winter] jjh20151130out107

Scene :

floorplan. @Collabor88 : repurposed ski lift : red

Scarlet Creative @Collabor88 : Rakkaus Skybox 1

<3 Cat

Bernadette and Sicily

Photo one

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Bernadette*

Skin : Izzie's : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Outfit : Goji : Kitten : Purr, Goji : Kitten : Tartan*

Poses : !bang {Coming soon for Wayward Market} : Ice Queen 2, Ice Queen 2b

Photo two

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Sicily {comes with and without the hat}*

Skin : Izzie's : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Dress : Goji : BooBoo : Cherry*

Pose : double take : catherine

<3 Cat

To the people who matter to me

This is going to be a long one so hold on tight.

I'm a private person, we are a private couple. I don't think that is much of a secret. With his full support I have spent the last 3 years diving into an exploration of gender and where I might fit on the spectrum. It's been a trip, a beautiful, painful, life changing trip that I've kept within our bubble.

To steal some words because he says it better than I can voice. Ellen Paige said when she came out "I am tired of lying by omission" and that's how I feel. There has been a huge part of myself that I've kept off to the side for a long time. We have kept people at arms length while we've been deciding where to go with this.
This year in particular has been a constant state of second guessing and watching my words, my social media use, my conversations, so no one caught on.

So, I'm done. I just want to be me, all of the time, without having to think about everything.

I am transgender.

Well... that's out there... Breathe... Keep reading, I'll answer questions and provide resources near the bottom.

I've tried dealing with this in a bunch of different ways, tried to keep it shoved away in a little box to revisit. Well, never. This has been the complete opposite of how I have dealt with my pansexuality, I am so comfortable with my sexuality and so open with everyone. It's gotten to the point where it is to big for me to ignore. I remember not being able to imagine living past 20, no plans to end my life but there wasn't a future I could picture where I was an adult. If you know me well you know there was a long history of self harm and abusing my body in a variety of ways. I have been so disconnected that the concept of caring for it made no sense. Why care for something that isn't yours?

Truth, I live in a comfortable bubble where I have support. My husband, a select few close friends, and all of my internet friends have been referring to me as he for a while. Some as long as 2 years, others a few months. The thought of meals, trips, gatherings, conversations, etc outside of that bubble has become very uncomfortable. I avoid them and I hate keeping you on the outside.

It's not all doom and pain and sadness though, the first time I was able to look myself in the eye and admit it out loud an enormous weight lifted off of me. I felt like I could breathe for the first time and I had a direction to take.

What is changing?

With me, not much. I'm not changing as a person, you're not losing me.
I'm taking the steps I need to to be an authentic complete person. This transition has been a slow process and I like it that way. The more people I tell the better it gets.

What did I (you) do wrong to cause this?

Nothing, this isn't a disease, I'm not mentally broken and you did nothing to "cause" it I'm just me.

Why did you wait so long?

It's a big scary world and there is almost no education on other genders beyond the negative. I didn't have the language to express what hurt, what has hurt all along. I made some friends and found support that gave me a voice.

Are you going to have "the surgery"?

Which one? There are a number of surgeries available, we haven't settled on any and won't make any choices until the time is right.  I really don't feel like discussing it with everyone, if I want to share I will when the time is right.

Your marriage?

My marriage is fine, great, stronger than ever. We plan on renewing it in the future to align with the changes in our relationship. He's my best friend, my strongest ally, and the love of my life. He helped me pick a first name though we are open to input on middle names. Everything about this has been we from the beginning because I am never alone.

Is Brad gay?

That's not really up to me to decide, his sexuality is his own to discover and own. He's my Brad and that's all I've ever cared about.



I used to be so scared of people knowing this about me but I have nothing to be ashamed of. I'm me, I'm great, there's nothing to be ashamed of about that. If anyone is going to put me down about it, I don't care. I am far too old and have far better things to do than let someone bring me down about this thing that brings me so much joy. The support systems I have now that I've come out to friends means the world to me.

If you are someone who thinks I should have told you one on one, I'm sorry. Believe it or not this is the scariest thing I have ever done. Please allow me the space to be brave in the only way I can. I am such a private person that I wish I didn't have to share it with anyone. Let's face it... I can't exactly hide it forever and I'd rather this than you finding out by accident.

All of that and still no name... no pronouns...

Let me reintroduce myself. Hi, I'm Ciarán. That's the Irish spelling of Keiran, it meant a lot to me to have another Irish name. I go by He/Him/His pronouns. Please do not refer to me as Caitlin or She/Her/Hers anymore. Doing so is disrespectful and damaging.

I will be patient with you, you will slip up, I will slip up. It happens, I trust that you're trying.

As for telling people, I would like to handle that on a case by case basis. Coming out is my job and for my safety unless you are absolutely sure of the person you are telling, please don't.

As someone brilliantly said, I'm not coming out, I'm letting you in.

Ciarán


Resources, not by any means complete but these are a good start.

Local :

https://www.publichealthgreybruce.on.ca/Your-Health/Sexual-Health/Gay-Lesbian-Bisexual-Information/PFLAG

https://www.facebook.com/GreyBrucePride/

Youtube :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fTjMeXzjvLs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ByG1DZmdoX0&index=2&list=PL1qLpnW-tHUoyOuaiIdJQBepBXsO8WH6e

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwIuyQGGK3w

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6zxHElLjeM&list=PL7SgbxvTR7N4ABiyIH1vO6BmKkVEpRNp6

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ByG1DZmdoX0

Pretty comprehensive pdf from another man :

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/6fvnbcbf6qmbojd/AABRVyL5FgbwdnMwfUnD9pC2a/__READ%20ME%20FIRST.pdf?dl=0

Other online :

http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2012/nov/29/transgender-advice-best-resources-online


 Interesting side note, that á is done on a computer by holding Alt and typing 0225 on the number pad.

Snowfight

Hair : [INK] : SEED : Black

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Jacket : ColdAsh : HUNTSMAN Jacket w/Shirt : Plaid

Pants : Slink : Mens Chinos : Black

Nose : *~*HopScotch*~* : Reindeer Kit : Nose

Antlers : *~*HopScotch*~* : Reindeer Kit : Antlers

Coffee : Little Llama : Holiday Cups

Pose : !bang @We <3 Role- Play : Stand 859*

Photo two

On Ciarán

Hair : [monso] : My Hair - Robin : Black Brown

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Feet : Slink : Mesh Feet : Flat {With Izzie's appliers}

Sweater : Casa Del Shai @Collabor88 : Men's Shawl Collar Sweater : Gray

Pants : FATEwear : Edward : Void

Shoes : Ama. : Liam Oxfords : Fatpack

On Ama

Hair : [INK] : SEED : Black

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Jacket : ColdAsh : HUNTSMAN Jacket w/Shirt : Plaid

Pants : Slink : Mens Chinos : Black

Shoes : Ama. : Liam Oxfords : Fatpack

Pose : Pose : !bang @We <3 Role- Play : rage*

<3 Ama 

Thinking out loud

Hair : MINA Hair @Christmas on 34th Street : Nell 01* {not made for male avatars but fit me well}

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Sweater : BlankLine @The Mens Dept : WinterGacha Sweater : Black A

Pose : double take : Steel alloy

<3 Ama

I've got you

On Cat

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Halston*

Skin : Izzie's : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Sweater : neve : easy : ombre*

Pants : neve : rolled : cords

On Ama

Hair : *Drot* @The Mens Dept : Draco

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Hope Eyes : Denim

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Sweater : Deadwool Ernst sweater : cerulean

Pants : Deadwool : The Dandy : taupe

Pose : !bang @Pose Lover event : catch me*

<3 Ama

The Snowy Ride

Photo one

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Neema*

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Top : neve : easy : ombre*

Pants : neve : rolled cords*

Pose : !bang @We 3> Role- Play : Stand 589M

Photo two

Hair : [INK] @The Mens Dept: TWEED EARMUFFS with HAIR1 :: RARE

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Feet : Slink : Mesh Feet : Flat {With Izzie's appliers}

Top : neve : easy : stripe*

Pants : neve : rolled : jewel*

Shoes : Ama. : Liam Oxfords

Pose : !bang @We 3> Role- Play : Stand 586

<3 Cat

Solace

Hair : TRUTH HAIR @We <3 Role-Play : Solace*

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Dress : .::dead dollz::. @We <3 Role-Play : Hoar minidress : Black

Pose : !bang @We <3 Role-Play : Stand 586

<3 Cat

Neema

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Neema*

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Feet : Slink : Mesh Feet : Flat {With Izzie's appliers}

Top : -tres blah- : Open Collar Blouse : White

Leggings : -tres blah- : Knitted Leggings : Black Pattern

Pose : Kirin : Midori : Pose 1

<3 Cat

Winter Snuggles

On Cryssie

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Fynn

Skin : League : Erin Pale

Top : Blueberry @Uber : Suko Leather Jacket

Jeans : Blueberry : Rica Skinny Jeans

On Ama

Hair : *Drot* @Men Only Monthly : Avery

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Jacket : Howl @Tannenbaum Holiday Market : Alex Simple Jacket : Navy

Tattoo : .Things. : Imperial Tattoo

Pose : !bang : Scooped*

Scene :

Dysfunctional Designs : The Fluffy Rug

<3 Ama

Time for hot chocolate

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Focus*

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Jacket : BUENO @Uber : Night Jacket : Dark Gray

Leggings : Ama. : Nordic Leggings : Mixed

Boots : fri.day @N21 : Emily Boots : Ash*

Gloves : Izzie's : Basic Fluffy Gloves

Pose : an lar Poses : The Chaos Series : Two

<3 Cat

Skating

Cryssie and I have both been wandering around a skating rink at her place having a great time with these new skating poses from !bang, somehow we didn't get Val into any pictures but that's life. Just imagine the falling on his butt picture is actually him... He's gonna hate me for that one. Anyway, the poses work beautifully alone like these first two and even better when you group them like the last.







Photo one and two

Hair : *Drot* @Men Only Monthly : Avery

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Hope Eyes : Denim

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Top : Ignition Art @Men Only Monthly : Jared Jacket

Pants : FATEwear : Peter : Void

Skates : Dysfunctional Designs : Ice Skate : Black&White

Poses : !bang @Shiny Shabby : ice skating 7, 5*

Photo three

On Cat

Hair : [monso] : Xiu : Black Brown

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Scarf : Tee*fy : Unisex Scarf : Black

Top : KITJA @Uber : Nile Shirt : GREY

Pants : KITJA @Uber : Nile Pants : BLACK

Skates : Dysfunctional Designs : Ice Skate : Black&White

Gloves : Izzie's : Fingerless Leather Gloves

Pose : !bang @Shiny Shabby : Ice Skating 4*

On Cryssie

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Aspen (with hat) : Gingers Pack

Skin : League : Erin Pale

Eyes : IKON : Triumph Eyes : Moor

Body : Slink : Physique Mesh Body V1.4 {With League appliers}

Hands : Slink : Avatar Enhancement Mesh Hands : Elegant

Dress : Dabble Dooya : Bodycon Wrap Dress : Neutrals Pack

Leggings : Ama. : Nordic Leggings : Red Snowflakes

Shirt : Sn@tch : Butch Tank Tops : Slightly Sheer

Scarf : Imeka @ The Kawaii Project : Basic Scarf : Dark Colours Pack

Gloves : Izzie's : Knit Gloves

Skates : N-core : Skates : White

Pose : !bang @Shiny Shabby : Ice Skating 2*

<3 Ama, Cat, Cryssie

Focus on me

Photo one

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Focus*

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Dress : Goji : Twist : Ombre*

Necklace : Ama. @The Fantasy Collective : Visions Necklace

Pose : !bang : Stand 582M {For Enchantment}

Photo two

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Amoret*

Skin : Izzie's @Uber : Xanthe Skin : pale

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Izzie's appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Izzie's appliers}

Feet : Slink : Mesh Feet : Flat {With Izzie's appliers}

Rings : Goji : Molly : Linear*

Dress : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Pose : !bang : Stand 584M {For Enchantment}

<3 Cat

That first snow

We had our first real snow this week and the world has been bathed in cold. I'm trying to be positive about it but really, I'm cold so there's that. Fortunately in SL we don't feel the bitter cold or the blistering heat of the summer so that first bit of snow is exciting.



Hair : *Drot* @Men Only Monthly : Avery

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Tattoo : .Things. : Imperial Tattoo

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Jacket : :::Breath::: @Men Only Monthly : winter coat

Pose : !bang Coming soon to Enchantment  : 583m

Scene :

~BAZAR~ : Toronto Living Room Set

<3 Ama

Footsie in Old Italy

I've got a bit of a mix today so bear with me. My morning was spent standing around in town watching what counts as a Santa Clause parade in this small town, it was quite charming actually but the flakes of real snow had me longing for somewhere warmer or just without the bitter snow so naturally I went to spend time in the old Italy of SL.



No it wouldn't be warm enough to hang around in shorts and a tank for most people but as a Canadian... I've been in much worse and lived. The top and shorts are both from a brand new store called Goji and they, much like the rest of their opening releases, are utterly adorable and really well made. If you peek in a little closer you might notice the understated necklace I'm wearing, well you can take yourself to The Fantasy Collective that opens tomorrow and pick up your own for free. Ama. is giving away the Dreams necklace in celebration of the event's two year anniversary. It has been a pleasure watching this one grow into the event it is today and I hope it continues for many more.



Here is another dress from Goji, I really enjoyed the watercolour print to it but there are several different ones to pick from. The Disco set especially would be great for the Christmas parties we all have coming up.



I know I always gush over the boots that fri.day creates but I can't get over how lovely the leather is on all of them, this pair with a hint of modern cowgirl are so great with the winter season taking over. They are unrigged so you might be able to fit them perfectly over some skinny jeans or just wear applier leggings like I usually do.

Anyway I'm going to turn the heat up and spend some time watching the snow come down, might as well enjoy it while I can.

Photo one

Hair : ::Exile :: : Another Day Gone

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Top : Goji : Sally Tank*

Shorts : Goji : Short Cheeky : Berries*

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Necklace : Ama.  @TFC {Opens tomorrow} : Dreams Necklace

Pose : oOo Studio Poses : Footsie : Four

Photo two

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Louisa*

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Dress : Goji : Dress Crimped : Watercolors*

Boots : fri.day @KUSTOM9 : Ingrid Boots : Steel*

Pose : oOo Studio Poses : Footsie two

Photo three

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Boots : fri.day @KUSTOM9 : Ingrid Boots : Buck*

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings Pose : oOo Footsie one

Location :  LaPerla - old Italy

<3 Cat

Halston and Louisa

Photo one

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Halston*

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings 

Sweater : The Secret Store : Short Sleeve Sweater : Snow

Pose : !bang : Stand 565

Photo two

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Louisa* {Essentials pack is a Group Gift!}

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings 

Tattoo : .Things. : Eloi Tattoo

Top : Blueberry : Group Gift Tank Top

Boxers : Ama. @Cosmopolitan Bi - Weekly : Comfy Boxers : Fatpack

Pose : Kirin : Keiko : Pose 3

<3 Cat

Come fly with me

Photo one

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Vienna*

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Odyssey Eyes : Clarity

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Feet : Slink : Mesh Feet : Flat {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Sweater : TRUTH : Lush Sweater

Shorts : Blueberry : Cuffed Denim Shorts : Black

Socks : fri.day @Collabor88 : Cozy Socks : Cream*

Shoes : Ingenue : Danja Oxfords : Noir

Pose : The Domineaux Effect : Lazy Day Chaise : Neutral Light

Location : Aspen Fell~Endless 

Photo two

Hair : ::Exile:: @Collabor88 : Early Sunset

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Eyes : IKON : Hope Eyes : Denim

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Dress : The Secret Store @Collabor88 : Annabelle Dress : Blue Polka

Pose : PURPLE POSES @Collabor88 : Lucia 06

<3 Cat

Vienna

Quick drop in post today because I had to share this with you before I go back to my day off. I can't remember the last one of these I took without feeling like I had so much I should be doing instead. Whew. Anyway, you needed a peek at the sleek sophistication that is Vienna. She is very sleek as i said before and is tucked behind the ears to fall down the upper back with a little natural feeling movement.



Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Vienna*

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Dress : The Secret Store @Collabor88 : Annabelle Dress : Blue Polka

Pose : PURPLE POSES @Collabor88 : Lucia 01

Have a wonderful day, I know I'm going to try to.

 <3 Cat

Words.

I know I try to keep things lightish and I very rarely go into politics or LGBTQ+ stuff. I had an experience not unlike many many others I get the pleasure of going through, this one wasn't even memorable but I think it's a good place to start a conversation about words.

Words can be incredible life giving things, they can lift you out of dark places and give you hope where there was none. Words build allies and deepen friendships whether whispered in the dark or shouted from the front of a pride parade.

Words are equally capable of tearing families apart, burning bridges, starting wars, ending friendships... the list goes on. For every lovingly uttered chosen pronoun there are so many others more interested in choosing their words as weapons.

I survived that encounter by leaving them with kindness and compassion and ending the conversation before they could respond. I'm not interested in the response, the backpedalling, the apologies. You can't take it back. You can't suck your words back into your lungs and pretend it never happened. Here in the virtual world we have a mute button, it shuts the hate out for good but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

Sometimes, unlike last night, the hate comes from elsewhere that looks like a well meaning place. A casual mistake. Words emblazoned across cloth. I'm beating around the bush, using words because I don't want to be the one to say no. I don't want to be the activist today yet he's pounding at my ribs to be free. Therein lies the dilemma.

It's never ok to say He/She.

Ama.

One of the boys

I feel like I should preface this photo and post with the fact that the Kauna suit and the FATEwear costume are not made with the intention of female base avatars wearing it, they happens to look amazing on cat as he is quite androgynous to begin with and is usually seen around in male base clothing these days. Always, always, always try a demo before buying anything and don't take my word that it will fit well on you.



Now  that that has been said, I've got a few things that you need to know about, first up is the sale at FATE. If you're looking for the nicest men's basics or costumes for either gender I'm going to tell you to go to FATE first. Hands down my favourite jeans on the grid, seriously, go buy some you will live in them.



I talk about The Mens Department almost every month, I know it's not new news but there are so few events specifically for men and the releases at other events are growing but it is still limited. Therefore I feel like men's events need to be highlighted and cherished. I love that MINA is back this round with a cheeky Fedora that includes a number of different hat textures so you can match it to your outfit.

We <3 Role Play doesn't see a lot of time in this blog mostly because I don't do a lot of rp shopping or dressing but the poses are worth the trip alone. !bang always has something really useful and bloggable on offer which is a big plus for me. 

Photo one

On Cat

Hair : ::Exile:: : Vindicated

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Stubble : Beusame : Stubble

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Suit : Kauna @FaMESHed : 2BN Suit

On Ama

Hair : MINA Hair @The Mens Dept : Maarten*

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Suit : Kauna @FaMESHed : 2BN Suit

Pose : !bang @We <3 Role- Play : akin*

Photo two

On Cat

Hair : ::Exile:: : Vindicated

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Feet : Slink : Female Feet : Flat {With Pink Fuel appliers} 

Stubble : Beusame : Stubble

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Suit : FATEplay : Matt : Original

Shoes : Ingenue : Danja Oxfords : Noir

On Ama

Hair : [INK] @The Mens Dept : MAGE : Black

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ash : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Slink : Physique Male Mesh Body

Hands : Slink : Male Hands : Relax

Sweater : etham @FaMESHed : Sergio Sweater

Jeans : Gabriel : Roll up denim pants : medium blue

Pose : oOo Studio Poses @The Mens Dept : Lazy Three

Scene :

22769 ~ [bauwerk] : Industrial Bed UK (Gay Edition)

floorplan. : chevron curtains : slate

<3 Amadeo

Mixed up

Hair : Magika : Itch

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Casual {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Feet : Slink : Mesh Feet : Flat {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Top : neve top : espirit : lively {For Mix}*

Skirt : neve : buttons : suede {For Mix}*

Shoes : Ingenue : Danja Oxfords : Noir

Pose : (Marukin) : royal fur : modern lady of the city

Scene :

*~*HopScotch*~* @The Gacha Garden : The Smoofies : Sleep*

*~*HopScotch*~* @The Gacha Garden : The Smoofies : Hanging*

*~*HopScotch*~* @The Gacha Garden :The Smoofies : Tail Jump*

*~*HopScotch*~* @The Gacha Garden : The Smoofies Stand up*

*~*HopScotch*~* : Spider Deco*

*~*HopScotch*~* : Spider Planter*

<3 Cat

Can't get you off my mind

Now for something different, my hair actually comes in two pieces that you can change separately and comes with an alternate set of gorgeous fade colours. I know! I was so excited to find the tricolour options but went with this black and green because it worked better with the outfit.  If you're a Belleza body wearer you're going to want to have a look at TRUTH as well for these super cute cropped tops. They *only* work on the Belleza bodies and each shirt colour comes with a HUD with a whole bunch of different decor options.



You might notice my face changed a little, ok a lot. I picked up the CATWA Jessica head so I could test appliers for Ama and I sort of love it. I ran right out and bought the new release of the Morgana Pink Fuel appliers. The combination is so pretty. Not my usual face but an interesting change from time to time.

Hair : TRUTH HAIR : Morgana*

Skin : Pink Fuel : Morgana CATWA Head Applier : Peach

Head : CATWA : Jessica

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Top : TRUTH HAIR : Flaunt Cropped Top : Black {for Belleza only}*

Skirt : Blueberry : Ena : Black

Necklace : Ama. @Cosmopolitan Bi - Weekly : The Cyclic Necklace : Black

Poses : Kirin : Sweet Girl : Pose 3, oOo Studio Poses : Crate

<3 Cat

To be loved

Do you know what it is like to be loved so completely as you rebuild your life?



I've been making some changes, huge, beautiful, life affirming changes in my offline life. {If you know me well you'll know what is going on so I'm not going to go into details.} So I haven't been around as much and I haven't had a lot to say in my posts. I'm not going to promise to be more wordy but I'm also not going anywhere. Right now taking beautiful photos feeds me like nothing else on the creative spectrum whether that be as Amadeo or Cat.

I've never been so connected to my people as I have been in the last month or as disconnected as I was the last 10+ years. Doing my coming out {not gay coming out, that was almost 15 years ago} was terrifying because I wanted to lose no one and I didn't. I reconnected with incredible people, strengthened my marriage, and built a rock solid support system to grow from.

I've got a long road ahead but I know no matter what I am loved, I hope you are too.  So that's why I went quiet... along with having a massive creating workload but that's nothing new.

On Cat Hair : ::Exile: : : Vindicated

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Top : Deadwool : Hugo shirt : bloody {For TAG Gacha}

Pants : Deadwool : Dandy Pants

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Necklace : Ama. @Cosmopolitan Bi - Weekly : The Cyclic Necklace : Black

On Cryssie

Hair : TRUTH HAIR @Uber : Foxy

Skin : League : Erin Pale

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With League appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Casual {With League appliers}

Top : Blueberry : Long Sleeve Top

Jeans : Blueberry : Mia Jeans

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Pose : ::WetCat:: @Cosmopolitan Bi - Weekly : "Two" I

<3 Ama

Just call me Foxy

 How cute is this fox hat? Of course, if you don't feel like wearing it there is an included hatless version that is just as lovely. I picked up a few things around Uber as well, like this cozy plaid dress. The spooky skeleton dress is a gift from G Field for Halloween.

Hair : TRUTH HAIR @Uber : Foxy*

Skin : Pink Fuel : Ashley : Peach

Eyes : Buzzeri : Aura Eyes : Nebula

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Dresses : -tres blah- @Uber : Shirt Dress : Blue -and- *G Field* : 2015 Halloween Gift Dress Set

Rings : Ama. : Anastasia Rings

Necklace : Ama. @Cosmopolitan Bi - Weekly : The Cyclic Necklace : Black

Pose : !bang @We <3 Role- Play : Stand 565

<3 Cat

Spoopy Love

Hair : Wasabi Pills : Sharon Mesh Hair : Vanilla pudding

Skin : Pink Fuel : Doll V2 : Crystal

Ears : Mandala : STEKING EARS Season 5

Body : Maitreya : Lara {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Hands : Slink : Mesh Hands : Elegant 1 {With Pink Fuel appliers}

Nails : Mama Llama @Freak Show Gacha Carnival : Halloween Nails {Various, Gacha Item}*

Headwear : Little Llama! @Freak Show Gacha Carnival : Instant-Costume : Deer/Dark RARE*

Shirt : VINYL : STUMP LOVE TEE SHIRT : GREY

Pose : !bang : Slink Hands 02

<3 Cat

Ama. Release The Cyclic Necklace

Available Oct 26th at Cosmopolitan Bi-Weekly .

<3 Ama